Positive

So I started a new blog about my regrets, and well, that's kind of depressing. :/ so I think I'll start listing a bunch of stuff I'm thankful for because I'm feeling like being a positive person! :D And hey it's never too early to start that Thanksgiving stuff.

I'm grateful that I have a supportive family and parents that aren't too strict
I'm grateful I live in a nice area where the crime rate's pretty much non-existant
I'm grateful to go to my school, where there's not a huge focus on popularity and where the homecoming court always consists of band members
I'm grateful I have four limbs, ten fingers, ten toes, two eyes, one nose, a mouth, and hair that grows (I just had to make that rhyme :]])
I'm grateful that I don't have some sort of terminal illness
I'm grateful I'm in two advanced ensembles on an instrument I picked up a year ago
I'm grateful I have two amazing sections full of awesome people who I love
I'm grateful I have amazing friends who I know will be there for me (and I for them) forever
I'm grateful that, after a year, a friend of mine thinks CS might like me back
I'm grateful my sex and gender are the same (there's a difference)
I'm grateful I'm not pregnant
I'm grateful I can sprint - not incredibly fast, but it's something
I'm grateful I've never been in a major accident
I'm grateful I've never broken a bone
I'm grateful for all the opportunities I have had
I'm grateful I don't have braces any more so I'm not afraid to smile
I'm grateful I have rice cakes
I'm grateful my area's so diverse that I can take Japanese at school
I'm grateful for an amazing music program
I'm grateful for an adorkable dog
I'm grateful my mom trusts me enough to let me drive her car
I'm grateful I've never gotten a ticket (then again I've only been driving for like a month)
I'm gratefulI have a house, a room, a bed
I'm grateful I can show who I am in public without fear, unlike in some places
I'm grateful I have and iPod, phone, and camera, which I payed for/ earned myself
I'm grateful for marching band, for all of the amazing experiences and people
I'm grateful for Scott Lang, who I wish I could hear speak every day of my life
I'm grateful for the internet
I'm grateful I'm not deaf, so I can hear music
I'm grateful I'm not blind, so I can see people's shining faces
I'm grateful I have a voice, both literally and figuratively - yay first amendment
I'm grateful I don't have a school uniform
I'm grateful I can dye my hair purple
I'm grateful I have hair
I'm grateful I'm free
I'm grateful I have shoulders to cry on
I'm grateful I have people to laugh with
I'm grateful I've been able to travel the world
I'm grateful I'll most likely be seeing a lot more of it
I'm grateful I'm not addicted to anything
I'm grateful I don't drink
I'm grateful I don't sit around watching tv all day and rotting my mind etc
I'm grateful for my clothes
I'm grateful for all 18 pairs of shoes I own (hey I never get rid of old ones okay? D:<)
I'm grateful I have a crush - it gives me something to strive for, a reason to better myself
I'm grateful I'm not lactose-intolerant - I love milk too much
I'm grateful I don't have to be vegetarian
I'm grateful my parents let me go to dances
I'm grateful for all my wonderful books
I'm grateful for all the music I own
I'm grateful my mom allows me (or @ least she used to) to have stuff on my walls
I'm grateful I can choose how I want to live my life
I'm grateful I got to see the first Wicked SF performance in a long time with no standins or subs
I'm grateful to have sat in the second row while watching said show
I'm grateful I've been in two wonderful musicals and hope to be in more soon
I'm grateful I'm alive
I'm grateful nobody wants me dead (I hope)
I'm grateful I don't have to be afraid to speak my mind
I'm grateful I can still spell grateful and that the word hasn't lost all meaning after this many 'grateful's
I'm grateful I'll still be alive tomorrow to write down more of these

Defy Gravity
~Izzy

So today was interesting. We had placement auditions for orchestra, and so Eric and I went in at break before orchestra even started and were practicing up until Boitz came in and was like 'OKAY AUDITION TIME NAO', which was like 15 minutes into the period. I let him go first, cause y'know he's an upperclassman and he's earned that privelege. :P After we practiced the kinda-impossible sixteenth and 32nd note parts for such a long time, Boitz only made us play the parts with quarter notes. And only three of the scales. Woow. Whole lotta stress for nothing. At least then I got to practice Bass Guitar more. :D And I finished some chem stuff and yaay! :D I still had questions, though, so I went to go see Kucer after school and he helped a lot. Sucks cause if we had had more time in class then we could have gotten to that topic and things woulda made a lot more sense. D: But hey at least I understand now! Then I went with Lenny back to good old M01 to practice Bass Guitar for a bit. But then that got boring so we went to actually HELP Ms. Cochrum instead of bothering her all the time. Twas fun. Stole- er... borrowed a school Bass Guitar so I could practice for JB2... hopefully it doesn't rape me again tomorrow :D Methinks that's all for now :]

Defy Gravity~

-Izzy

Stalker/Boys/Rant

PRE-RANT RANDOM NOTE:
I've had this song from The Wiz stuck in my head lately... It was the musical at my middle school in 7th grade, yet I can't remember what it's called and I'm too lazy to go dig my old script out of the pile of junk in the closet. Two random lines are stuck in my head... except I'm not quite sure of the words, just the melody... Which I can't exactly type. I'll look it up on Youtube and post the link...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QkevAOJsjKI
I DISCOVERED THE LYRICS I HAD IN MAH HEAD.
'So when my world's gone and changed its face, still I know where I'm going!
I have had my mind spun around in space, and yet I can still see it growing'
or something like that

ON TO THE RANT.

So these past few days we've had an evening block of marching band rehearsal from 6-9pm... And at the same time, there's been speech and debate at the school doing practice or socializing and bonding or god knows what. Which would be fine, I know a girl in it that used to be in band, and she's nice, most of them are sane. Except that there's this one guy in it who's reeeally weird. Total creeper. He kinda stalked me at the beginning of last year... and he liked me and stuff, but I didn't like him at all. And when I was waiting to be picked up from Band, a bunch of speech and debate people were outside in the same area. I hid behind this possible-druggie alto sax guy. Neither of them noticed. Thank god. Last thing I want is to see him again. >___<>incredibly good-looking. Really. It's gotten out of hand. (edit i have no idea what happened there oops)

Looking back at that it is kinda mean... :/ but that's like last resort if even bass buddy tactics don't work. I'm really hoping he learned his lesson last year and it was a hormonal type thing that's now gone away. -crosses fingers- Unfortunately, he's going to be in my orchestra period, but so is CS ;] and bass buddy. But if i have any classes with him and no bass biddues or anyone to protect me, I'm going to die. D: seriously. Well, I guess I'll try to get to sleep somehow now. :/ I don't really want to, even though I have an early morning, then a sleepover tomorrow and school monday... Oh well.

Vowing to be nice to people this school year :]

Defy Gravity.

-Izzy

Memories

Wow I kinda forgot about this thing...

On a slight fml note, I just found out yesterday that this guy I went out with from 6th-7th grade broke up with me because his High School-age brother told him and his twin sister that they were too young to date. We were too young anyways and looking back, I'm glad it ended when it did, but really now? If I had an older sibling that said I should break up with whoever I'm going out with, I'd be like noo eff you. Though again, I'm glad he didn't say that and ended it. :]

(on a random note my hunger isn't really back but I've got something similar now that's still more ignorable than the normal kind)

Anyhoo... Band camp. Highlight of my summer currently. Last week was the first week, and it was helllla intense. This week we have a 5-hour break in the middle of the day to save ourselves from dying from heatstroke, even thoguh it was pretty cool out today. Even so, during the last run-through, soem guys took off their shirts. As always. Crazy band kids. But a combination of that and seeing the football players leave the field before our rehearsal made me realise something. Band guys are ten million times cuter than football players. I dunno what it is, maybe the football players at our school are unnaturally ugly or something, cause they sure aren't like the stereotypical hotties in the movies. In fact, I don't like football. Sure, call me a bad American, but the only way you can get me to watch and pay attention to that game is when I'm in the stands in a hot uniform with a heavy instrument and I need to pay attention a) to find out when to play, and b) cause there's nothing else better to do. The only thing i slightly enjoy about it is asking CS what the heck's going on and having him explain it. Yay conversation!

Speaking of him... Well, I dunno. We're next to each other in drill (I made sure that happened), and we're gonna be in orch and stuff together... And this year I vowed to grab life by the horns, cause I just regret not doing so many things Freshman year. So I think I'll have to tell him some time. At the band retreat and before hand I'd talked to two of my guy friends about it and one was like 'GO FOR IT ALREADY' and the other was... well, himself. He seemed sad that I regretted so much. And then there was the third guy who just moved here from Texas and overheard my conversation with the second guy and was completely confused. But that's to be expected, he plays sax. :P

I think that's all for now. :]

Defy Gravity
-Izzy