Wicked

Like omg guess what I saw last night?
WICKED.
We drove for like an hour up to San Fran, went to dinner across the street from the theater, and then went and saw it and it was the single most amazing thing I think I have ever seen in my entire life oh my god I loved it so much. I cried SIX TIMES. Two or three of which were during the song 'Defying Gravity', which is actually a happy song, but it was so beautiful I cried. Teal Wicks was amazing as Elphaba and I was sososososoooo glad it was her and not the Standby... Who probably would have been great but she just blew me away. And on top of it all we were in row freaking B. Which is like the second row. And we were in the middle. Lenny got the best seat, even though she'd seen it before, but we had the three middle-est seats on the right side of the second row and it was amazing. We were so close I could see the mics on the actors' foreheads, almost got hit by a bubble from one of the bubble blowers on Glinda's magic bubble thing. :]

And now a little mini-rant on each of the reasons I cried. The following may contain spoilers, but I'd appreciate it if you'd read it anyways... not that anybody does :/

So the first time I got teary was during this song called 'I'm Not That Girl'... So basically, Fiyero (who was HOT, but not my type :P) and Glinda were like all lovey (this is like in college beeteedoubleyoo) and Fiyero's popular and like a prince and everybody likes him and same with Glinda and they're both pretty and seem kinda shallow. So Fiyero's all really nice to Elphaba, this other girl (who later becomes the wicked witch of the west) at this one point and they obviously like each other a lot and they're kinda awkward and it's like awwwwww but then Fiyero goes off to save this cub he and Elphaba rescued and so Elphie's kinda left there alone thinking about omg I like this guy but he's wonderful and I'm green (like literally) and why the heck would he ever love me when he's got Glinda the amazingly beautiful and loved and she things this song that almost made me cry... Explaination after lyrics:

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl:

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with a gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And Heaven knows
I'm not that girl:

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl

The middle-endish part especially affected me where it describes this perfect girl and is like 'thats the girl he chose, and heaven knows, I'm not that girl'. Because that's kinda how I feel about life and stuff. CS is like Fiyero, hot and popular, and so is the person he likes (I'm pretty sure of it) , so she's like Glinda... And then I feel like Elphaba a lot of the time. I'm just kind of there at first... We haven't gotten to the later part where it's like omfg i lub joo more than the shallowish popular girl. :/ I hope that happens one day... So when Elphaba sang this song, I could barely see from the welling tears, because it reminded me so much of my life... so when Glinda sang a reprise of it when suddenly she wasn't that girl and Elphie got the hottie, I was definitely smiling. :]

And then of course defying gravity. I thought she was going to die in the part right before it, so that had me a little sniffly, but then that dried by about halfway through. And then there's an incredibly epic part where guards storm in looking to capture Elphie but grab Glinda instead cause elhpie was hiding in the shadows (secretly getting on a platform/harness thing for hte next part) and then she sing something like 'it's not her you want, it's me... it's meeeee!' and then my favorite part ever came and I had tears streaming down like rain... I'm getting goosebumps just thinking about it!

So if you care to find me
Look to the western sky!
As someone told me lately:
"Ev'ryone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo,
At least I'm flying free.
To those who'd ground me,
Take a message back from me:
Tell them how I am
Defying gravity!
I'm flying high,
Defying gravity!
And soon I'll match them in renown.
And nobody in, all of Oz.
No Wizard that there is or was.
Is ever gonna bring me down!

I FREAKING LOVE THAT PART. And Elphaba rises up on a platform or something and she's got this huge cape thingy and the lighting and the background music and everything is SO FREAKING EPIC describing it's giving me wave after wave of goosebumps.... And then it was intermission.

I honestly don't quite remember the crying times after that... I think I got teary when Elphie and Fiyero were all lovey cause it was so sweet and then he 'died' and I definitely cried as soon as the first word of 'For Good' was sung, cause that's just the most beautiful song I think I've ever heard... and the saddest. :( But still amazing! And maybe I teared up when they melted ElphabaAnd then at the end... HUGE MEGA SPOILER ALERT BTW I'D STOP READING NOW UNLESS YOU'VE SEEN IT OR DON'T CARE. When Elphie and Fiyero were actually alive and not dead and ahhhh ran off together to be all <3>

And I just read something online that said that last night was the first night since Februrary that there hadn't been ANY understudies or stand-ins for any of the parts. :] Teal Wicks was definitely amazing and I would have thrown a fit if it wasn't her as Elphie. And then I would have come to see it again anyways in hopes of seeing her. :D Maybe it was because last night was LGBT night... At least, that's what some guy Swabby works with told him at the restaurant... Swabby came back and told us and was like 'and they're in row y or something' and we asked if he told them where we were and he was like 'yeah. They're jealous.' and we were like :P YAY.

Wow I think I'm all Wickeded out as far as retelling the story... :3 Weeeeelll until next time, I guess.

Defy gravity.

-Izzy

Oh, Thursday

Today was actually hella fun in classes where yearbooks were allowed :] otherwise, it was just like whuuuut why so much hw? ><>Back to studying!
-Izzy

Thinking Positive!

Hey so from now on, screw the bad stuff, Immana talk about positive things! Yay! I just think I've been to emo lately with my postings... :/ Sorry, whoever cares.
So we got yearbooks today... Boitz let us out early to go get them before school was even out, but they wouldn't let us in cause they weren't set up and Seniors were supposed to go first. Bummer, but then after about 20 minutes of waiting they let people of any grade that were waiting around come in and get their yearbook, so I got mine before a lot of people. It's really cool and really big, even though that makes it kinda hard to carry cause of the weight of all the pages... But it's really well done! It's funy cause you can tell all the people in Marching Band because we had to take our pictures during an hour or so break at band camp so we were all sweaty and red. My tank top tan's EXTREMELY obvious lol. But hey I'm used to laughing at horrible pictures of me so whateverrr. :D
And in orch we got the results of the silly awards we voted on. I didn't win anything (the prize was just a cookie anyways), but somehow I got nominated for America's Next Top Model. wtfff if anybody knows who nominated me for that pray do tell. I need to figure out what's wrong with them. ><>
And that's pretty much it. I should be studying for math but I'd rather blog and yeah. Whatever. Yearbook > math.
-Izzy

Another not so great day... But tomorrow can always be better!

So today in English we had to present these tableaux thingies. :/ 

Everything was okay until I stood up and accidently bumped my desk, which had my precious camera on it. It fell on the floor and for a minute I thoguht everything was okay... but then I discovered what i thought was the lens had shattered. I told the teacher about it and after inspecting it he deduced that it was actually only the piece of glass covering the lens, not the lens itself, that had broken, and so therefore was most likely fixable. 

So hopefully that gets worked out.

I was playing Wii Fit yesterday and I discovered I'd lost almost a whole BMI point. I used to be at about a tenth of a point underweight and now I'm almost a  full point under... Yay? Wii Fit still thinks I'm normal though! But my Mii looks freaking anorexic ;-; Oh well. This random loss of appetite is weird... my dad forced me to bring a Boost shake (what i'd always have for lunch before this non-hunger thing) to school so I ended up drinking it and my hunger came back a tiny bit... I'd rather it not, I kind of like this not having the urge to devour every piece of random crap in sight. Cause I wasn't eating terribly healthily. Is that even a word? Healthily? 

Whatever

-Izzy

:/

For the first time in freaking forever, I think I'm kinda depressed.

Well, first of all, I got to school this morning and everything was fine until about an hour into World Geo. I got called into the office to see the guidance counselor. On the way there, I was pondering why... And immediately thought of the worst that could happen - A conflict between orchestra and Japanese, both onesie classes. When I got there and was ushered into the counselor's room after about a minute of waiting in one of those chairs around this random table in the guidance office with a bunch of other students doing homework, reading, and, in the case of the guy next to me, playing guitar. o-o

I sat down in the counselor's office, and, after reviewing what I assumed was my tentative next-year's schedule in a packet of papers on her desk, she dropped the news on me. "It looks like you have a conflict between Advanced Jazz Ensemble and... Japanese 2." she stated simply, looking up at me as if expecting an immediate answer. My jaw dropped. It wasn't an orchestra conflict, but it was about as bad. I had auditioned for Jazz 2, thinking it would be untouchable by schedule conflicts because of its spot during 7th period. But apparently some classes had been moved around, and so now 7th period Jazz 2 was 6th period instead, the same time as Japanese. 

I really want to take Jazz 2 because even though it came as a complete surprise when I found out I had gotten in to the group (which I hadn't planned on auditioning for until my friend insisted I try about a week before auditions), even though I had gone in to the audition thinking of it just like another chance to prepare for my infinitely more important Advanced Orchestra rehearsal. So when I was called into one of the band director's offices during Orchestra one day and he told me the news, I just about peed my pants. In a good way. So even though I had been planning on going into Symphonic Band so as to keep up with Baritone, I agreed to make the switch. Thing is, I'm a bass, so there's only one in the section, and if I don't take the spot now, I may not have another chance in my High School careeer. That and I have no idea who would replace me, as one bass is doing SWE and can't fit it in his schedule and the other doesn't want to. :/ But the second time i talked to the band director, after talking to my Japanese teacher, he said that another conflict had arisen, and if there was one more, that they would have to move Jazz 2 back to 7th period. Somehow, they ended up with four onesie classes 6th period next year, which is bound to cause schedule conflicts: Japanese 2, Jazz 2, Chinese 5, and Chinese 6. So hopefully somebody else has a problem, otherwise I hafta make a really hard decision...

A decision I don't want to make, because I can't really drop Japanese. We're the last class of the language - there's no Japanese 1 next year. If anybody falls behind, the teacher doesn't know what she's going to do. But that also means I couldn't stay back and go to 2 my junior year (Which I wouldn't really want to do anyways), and I mean I'm pretty good at Japanese, but there's no way in heck I could learn enough over the summer to get into 3 next year... :/ And I really like the language, so I'd rather not pick another one and have to start all over from scratch, rather than building on what I already know. 

But let's be positive! Somebody else is GOING to have a conflict, so they'll HAVE to change it! Yeah! Positive! Now I forget the other thing I was sad about! 

Oh wait I remember.

So on top of that stress-ness, Finals are next week. And this past Friday was, as I've said the last orch concert. So these are like hte last couple days I'll see a lot of these people, especially the seniors, which makes me sad. And I haven't been eating much. :/ Idk if it's from stress or something, but I just haven't been hungry. And when I do feel hungry, it's not like a normal kind of hungry, but more like this weird stomach feeling (I know I'm so specific) but if I don't eat it just goes away and I'm not hungry anymore so I kinda haven't been eating cause I hate forcing myself to when I don't feel hungry... Which I guess is good cause it might help the other reason I kinda feel like crap, which is kind of my main second emo-face complaint thing. 

So this guy I've liked for a long time... CS. (Certan Someone, get it? ;o I'm too pro at abbreviations) He's really cool, I like him a lot. But he's always around girls, who are pretty much just his friends. But there's this one girl that hangs around him in orch (the only time I really see him) that... I dunno. It's weird. I'll look across the room at him and he'll be doing whatever and it's fine and then that girl walks over and I feel inferior. And I'm nothing more than friends with this guy, but I always feel like I'm less than these girls who hang around him, and it's all because they're these petite, cute little skinny Asian girls and welll.... I'm not. :/ BMI-wise, I'm a little under-weight, actually, but compared to these other girls I feel like a big fatty. And I hate it. Even when I'm having a good day, I take one glance at them when they're near CS and suddenly my day's a shitty one. 

Sigh.... Think positive?

-Izzy

It's All Over...

Soo I couldn't really write yesterday, cause by the time i got home, it was today. o-o

Yeah last night was the Orchestra end-of-year concert. It was AMAZING. I just can't believe another year of orch's pretty much over... The Seniors have been so unbelievably awesome I just can't put it into words... I'll miss them sososo incredibly much, along with one of our amazing band directors who's leaving us to get his PhD or something in Music Education. Some people put together a going-away video for him, and they showed part of it at last night's concert - I was seriously almost in tears. 

But then the whole mood was reversed and we were cracking up during the last piece because of the choreography the Seniors had put together for this John Williams medley we played. And after all that, we stuffed the basses back on the rack, kicked our music underneath, and ran off to Jake's for an after-party with the whole orchestra. 

We were some of the first people to get there, meaning we got the first pizza and everybody else was staring at us hungrily. x] Anyhoo so we got our pizza and ate it and after that I reeeeally wanted some spicy curly fries so I got some of those and when we finished, Jimmy and Eric were sprinkling salt and pepper from the shakers on the table randomly into the little paper thing the fries had come in. And then, shakers in hand, the two of them discovered the last piece of pizza, waiting to be destroyed. 'Hey, you wanna make the most disgusting piece of pizza ever?' Eric challenged, and I jumped in with the boys as they smeared the poor pizza with barbeque sauce, salt, pepper, bits of leftover fry, and a chicken strip, just for good measure.

And then of course they had to eat it. Eric took a bite, then choked on the sheer amount of pepper and chucked it across the table, where it lay for about two minutes before they decided to make it grosser. Eric and Jimmy unscrewed the lids of the salt and pepper shakers and dumped half a container of each on the poor pizza, which I then mized around with my straw. After that, it was a contest. Eric took a bite or two more and then died, and then Jimmy started eating some so then Eric had to eat more. Final score? 4-3 Eric won. 

But they were both on the verge of barfing so nobody really won in that aspect. :P A fun night in general the pics are hilarious, but I look like a retard in almost all of them. D:<

Oh well! :] Most amazing night since Championship Weekend of MB fer sure.

And next year, orchestra will be ten million times more amazing for various reasons including MB will start again so I get to experience another time the thing I've missed so much since its cessation in November. :]]]]

-Izzy

This one time, at Orch...

The other day in orchestra...

CS (certain someone ;o) sort of was staring at me... Strangely. I turned to him, heart pounding, and met his gaze. I started to smile a little, epic music playing through my head (or it may have been Boitz working with the violins) and then suddenly he opened his mouth to speak. I held my breath, bit my tongue, my pulse racing as I wondered what it was he was going to say. His lips started to form the fateful words, and then they fell from his mouth.

"I'm hungry."